i m only human

Change of heart

2005-07-27T15:25:00.000+08:00

ure still here? damn ure slow. update ur links everybody!
- mr.#17
the pauper who drank soda

Lies

2005-07-22T17:56:00.000+08:00

my life stinks. my room stinks.
i suck. everything that's mine sucks.
i am the worst. everything i own is the worst.
i want to complain but i can't. i wanna protest but i cant
this world is unfair. swear words are so common they arent swear words anymore
life fucking sucks.

this world is crap. dammit.

mind of its own

I need someone to talk to.

2005-07-20T18:41:00.000+08:00

Question from a source :
Why are you so idiotic so retarded and acting so poser all the time?

I m sorry,
dear whoever you are. I am who i am ..... I can't seem to change cause i have never ever heard of other people telling me this...hmmm i think u are the weird one.

That was a email I got....a hatemail from some person wh oread my blog.
No use arguing with this kinda people.
Mentally retarded.
But , forgive and forget ;
I WON'T !
xD

One Way

2005-07-19T18:58:00.000+08:00

This song is one of the best songs I've heard since last year. Haha hope to say this with everyone xD

One Way

by Hillsong United

album: More Than Life (2004)


I lay my life down at your feet
You're the only one I need
I turn to you and you are always there

In troubled times its you I seek
I put you first thats all I need
I humble all I am, All to you

One way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One Way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for

You are always, always there
Every how and everywhere
Your grace abounds so deeply within me

You wil never ever change
Yesterday today the same
Forever till forever meets no end

One way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One Way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for

You are the way the truth and the life
We live by faith and not by sight ... for you
We're living all for you

Harry Potter

2005-07-18T15:31:00.000+08:00

Now although i personally have not read the lastest HBP bk, but i've done my research *bad boy grins*

I've changed the text color so highlight it to read the spoilers.
Spoilers :

Who is the Half-blood Prince?

Which major character died and what is basically the whole story??

I'll cut it down because its a long story, but Draco Malfoy disarms Dumbledore and is set to kill him, but he cant. The Death Eaters who are with him then call Snape, who walks in, Dumbledore pleads with Snape, who looks at him with loathing, and then Snape casts Avada Kedavra at Dumbledore, and it hits him, bang in the chest.

Snape is the Half Blood Prince. His father was a Muggle named Tobias Snape, and his mother was a witch named Prince, cant remember her first name, sorry. Snape is an incredibly powerful wizard, he reveals that James Potter would never attack him unless it was 4 on 1, and that James used spells that Snape has invented, against him.

Its also explained how Voldemort survived the Avada Kedavra curse, he has split his soul into 7, 6 of which are hidden in objects called "Horcruxes". Dumbledore explains to Harry that two of the Horcruxes have been destroyed, Harry and Dumbledore then set out to find the other Horcruxes, as if all 6 are destroyed, Voldermort will then be Mortal again.

On a brighter note, Harry and Ginny get together, only to break up because Harry doesnt want to put her in any further danger. Ron and Hermione fall out, and still don't get together. Bill and Fleur announce their engagement. Percy Weasley visits the Burrow. Tonks reveals she is in love with Lupin, who at the end of the book, returns her love.

Harry, Ron and Hermione learn to Apparate, Hermione passes her test, Ron fails as he leaves half an eyebrow behind. Harry is too young to take the test, but is allowed to Apparate with Dumbledores permission.

Harry is also made Quidditch Captain.

The new minister for magic is Rufus Scrimgeour.

Another spoiler :

Spoiler Alert: What follows is the first quick synopsis of the events in Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince to appear on the Web – including all major plot revelations and deaths.

Because Lord Voldemort is back and so many uncontrollable, evil things are happening, Cornelius Fudge has resigned as Minister of Magic and replaced by Rufus Scrimgeour, a vampire.

Draco Malfoy has become a Death Eater and arranges to smuggle a secret item into Hogwarts. Voldemort has sent him on a special, possibly suicidal mission, possibly to kill Harry. Draco’s mother has Severus Snape swear an Unbreakable Vow to keep Draco from harm, if he can, and aid him on his mission.

Harry inherits the late Sirius Black’s house – although Sirius’ murderer and sister, Bellatrix, also has a claim to it. Harry becomes captain of his Quidditch team. Draco declares he may never finish school next year at Hogwarts because the Dark Lord will value his loyalty and service before then.

Professor Dumbledore takes Harry on a memory-trip vision to witness Voldemort’s origins - with the Dark Lord’s grandparents, who are Merope Gaunt, a witch, one of the last of a long, pure-blood magic family, and a Muggle named Tom Riddle. But like Harry, Voldemort soon becomes an orphan.

Harry gets into a Potions class at the last minute, taught by a new teacher, an old friend of Dumbledore’s named Slughorn whom he’s brought back to Hogwards. Harry is issued an old magic textbook with scribblings on it from the previous owner: the Half-Blood Prince.

A female student named Katie Bell unwraps a package while in Hogsmeade, the local village. She finds an old locket - and is nearly killed by it. Harry learns from another of his visits to the past that the Slytherin locket belonged to Merope Gaunt, Voldemort’s grandmother. And he learns that Riddle/Voldemort has murdered people for that locket. he also learns that Riddle/Voldemort tried to become the teacher of the Defense against the Dark Arts class but was refused by Dumbledore, even though Dumbledore knew Riddle/Voldemort was after something else entirely.

Ron, Harry, Hermione and Ginny get into various who-kissed-whom, who’s-cheated-on-whom arguments. Jealous, teenagery arguments. And like teenagers, everyone switches partners in a matter of weeks. Ron accidentally swallows a love potion.

In their memory-traveling, Harry and Dumblebore see Slughorn meet Voldemort when Slughorn first taught at Hogwarts – but Slughorn’s memories have been deliberately “cleansed.” Harry tries to get into Slughorn’s good graces to find out more about the “horcrux” memory but fails.

Harry gets two house elves to spy on Draco. He’s becoming paler, greyer – perhaps his mission is going badly. They see him regularly sneak into the Room of Requirement. Which Harry can’t enter.

Hagrid’s favorite giant spider, Aragog, dies. He holds a funeral for it, and Harry uses the occasion to get Slughorn drunk and get the “horcrux” memory he needs.

A few days before yet another Quidditch match, Harry heads into a bathroom to find Malfoy talking to Moaning Myrtle. They battle, Harry nearly kills Draco. Snape saves Draco and demands to know how Harry knew such a curse. Harry is given detention, which will prevent him from playing in – yes – the Quidditch match.

Harry learns that it was Snape who told Voldemort about the prophecy concerning Harry, and he accuses Dumbledore of bringing Snape to Hogwarts in the first place. But Dumbledore convinces Harry to accompany him to a cave where Voldemort has left a “horcrux” - essentially a piece of his soul. Dumbledore must drink a potion (that contains the locket) and it nearly kills him. Harry helps him back to Hogwarts - only to find Malfoy has let Death Eaters in.

If you do not wish to learn the ending, do not read any further.

Dumbledore immobilizes Harry (under his Invisibility Cloak) but is disarmed by Malfoy. Malfoy and the Death Eaters can’t kill Dumbledore – but Snape can, blasting Dumbledore over the wall while Harry can only watch, helpless. It is Snape who is the Half-Blood Prince.

Snape and Harry battle, until Hagrid saves Harry and the Death Eaters are eventually driven away. Harry learns what was inside the locket all along - a mysterious message.

Harry, the survivors and an “extraordinary assortment” of people from the Order of the Phoenix, the Ministry of Magic and Hogwarts alumni gather as they burn Dumbledore’s body and encase the remains in a white marble tomb.

Can You solve this anagram?

2005-07-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

Can You solve this anagram?
Dan Yellow indeed solve England girl lying on hike

This anagram is something close to my heart (its not the meaning!)

Those Who Suffered More

2005-07-13T20:38:00.000+08:00

Back to blogging. Trouble's brewing. Skool's turning into a Gangfight sooner or later.
Anyway, didn't receive quite good reviews for my song composition, shld be due to the fact i haven't recorded the song on my com yet....hmm nxt wishlist haha
Anyway, its mugging time alreadi....shld hav started months ago, but gaining seriously momentum these days, Chemistry and Physics still like fucking shit , hopefully i plan to back on my Maths instead. Thanks Ade.
Hmm sometimes i fell like i have no one to talk to. I need some help.
- "He can help others , but he can't save himself."

Geeks

2005-07-09T13:57:00.000+08:00

Hate of the Common Unheard
Composed and written by wiL (#17)

I've got the usual timetables
Up on the wall in my room
I've got the usual hate label
Within the happiness it brings doom
I get the dirt for being who i am
I wanna know why they care
I wanna see the faces of them
When they see that it's not fair

|| Coz' I've been waiting for this pain to override
And I've been leaveing them a goal wide open
They've been beating on things that annoy me
And somehow I can't can't get free
Coz' I've been waiting for this hurt to go away
And I don't know what to say
When these people , they gang up on me
They hurt me so bad , yet they don't see me ||

I've been crying in my bedroom
I've been holding on for life
I'm locked up in this tomb
I wanna break free with arms wide open
I wanna bring them the fight
I'm locked up now , I don't care if i hide
From this isde there's no light
I'm gonna die an unhappy person
Because I can't take it anymore

|| Coz' I've been waiting for this pain to override
And I've been leaveing them a goal wide open
They've been beating on things that annoy me
And somehow I can't can't get free
Coz' I've been waiting for this hurt to go away
And I don't know what to say
When these people , they gang up on me
They hurt me so bad , yet they don't see me ||

Coz' I've been waiting for this pain to override
And I've been leaveing them a goal wide open
And somehow I can't can't get free
Coz' I've been waiting for this hurt to go away

I've got the usual timetables
Up on the wall in my room
I've got the usual hate label
Within the happiness it brings doom

Crapped.

2005-07-01T14:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes when u think that life is good , someone will come and ruin it.
Today sucks. Big time. SOME people think that counterstrike the game is their life.
SOME people: "We didn't lose the game; we just ran out of time."
SOME people just because JWong interrupted their c-s tournament that they claim to be winning, will have a mood swing and scream at you for no fuckin' reason.
SOME people never apologize , they think just because their c-s skills are pro , they got all the gear and all that shit headphones and what razor diamond shit mouse, they think they can scream their ass off.
SOME people who look down on you juz cause your studies are as good as them, where i live i na HDB flat and you live in a private housing.
SOME people think that their shit are the best. What stupid super mouse what stupid super mousepad? What in 15 years time wanna be a lawyer? I never say dreaming is bad, but you dun have to look down on others. SO what if i have no looks and no talent? So what if u got more 'talent' than me? You got looks? NO. Talent? Other than c-s? "Don't be so humble - you are not that great."

I dun think ranting off is useless. But. As soon as i get out of this crap skool, goodbye all. I dun ever wanna see u again. HMPF. What a lousy way to end my Youth Day celebrations.
God save the world from this kinda fucking muggers. I realised that its best to mind my own business. Better still dun be such a nice guy anymore. Muggers juz dun appreciate ure kindness.
Muggers never change.
SOME people never change.

Be nice to people on your way up because you meet them on your way down.
The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good.

How to deal?

2005-06-30T16:45:00.000+08:00

Heck well I got my guitar , and i went for my best pal's confirmation. 2 top items done. SO what's next?
Youth Day celebrations. What a bore.
Newest craze : Slipknot.
Are they or are they not satanic....

Jasper : no idea...dunno...
#17 wiL : heheh...they are weird.

god dammit #17 wiL youre answer was so right.
opps i am praising myself. What an idiot. But.
Punk motto : DIY
so? I DIY.

mug harder dude.

how am i gonna deal with it?

Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I don't I'll probably regret it
But if I don't I'll probably regret it
How do I cope

when
The one you love is with somebdoy else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how to I live...how do I deal without you

It's killing me to know
That your heart hurts with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime without you

I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how to I live...how do I deal without you?
Somebody tell me......please

Seek and you shall receive

2005-06-29T19:28:00.000+08:00

i seeked my god...my god eluded me.............

i seeked my friends...my friends i do not have any................

i did not seek for some things.......but i found all three................

What a Life....

2005-06-29T18:58:00.000+08:00

(reposted from my other blog)

goddammit. fuckit.

describes my feeling now :

Where I come from isn't all that great
My automobile is a piece of crap
My fashion sense is a little whack
And my friends are just as screwy as me

I didn't go to boarding schools
Preppie girls never looked at me
Why should they?
I ain't nobody

Look at all those movie stars
They're so beautiful and clean
When their home maids scrub the floors
They get the spaces in between

and so ,

Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess

I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess , I will.

end. fuckedup life.
positive negativity?

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